YOUR SWEET LOVE

THAT GOD created anciently is not so, For all things are birthing fresh today; And if there is a truth all men must know: It's there is no past - all things are present day. All across the world it is this way, Truth rings a bell and then the temple sings: All we crave keeps disappearing down a drain; As sun and moon keep circling one vast ring. As we search for beauty, we learn that beuty dies, And all the world is set in depths of pain, And as we search for truth, where lasting truth resides, We learn the only absolute is change. And as we search and learn that life and death are so, Rain hits hards and the stormy winds do blow; And after all my travelling coast to coast, I learn Round the world two times through heat and ice and snow Your loving heart is all I need to know, Your sweet sweet love is all I need to know.

Charles Bukowski: "People Are Pointless."

MY GAME AND HOW I PLAY IT - SCHOOL FOR MYSTICS

                                                                       ORIENTATION FOR MYSTICAL ENDEAVOUR:
    

(1)   To enter into the forest or some place of natural
        beauty.

(2)  Find a place there, a place that
      emanates home & power & kind welcome.

(3)  Sit in this place and let my feelings enter into
       the ground, to feel the earth and smooth rock
of the Laurentian Shield....To place my hand flat
upon the rock and  feel the memory of the rock for 
at least 500 feet beneath my hand, to enter into the earth
with my heart and soul and mind. And to let the
earth enter into me.

(4) To feel the dawn slowly rise, to feel its warmth
rise within me, to feel the dawn within me.

(5)  to say a prayer to God and the gods of the place,
to ask for strength from the guardian spirits,
to hail the saints and bodhisattvas, whose consciousness
envelops the earth, surrounds our mother planet
as the atmosphere surrounds her, to surround our globe
just as the atmosphere surrounds us, and as
part of the atmosphere.

(6) To see the moon rise and to let the light of the moon
slowly grow and glow withing me

(&) To be an atom and a crucible and  and an empty
      vessel for the All and the conscious speaking of
      the mother and the father God...

               This is a good beginning.
                     For the first day.




                                                                                 

                                                           The School For Mystics, (C) 2014 by W.G. Milne

PAINTINGS

PAINTINGS of me and my friend, ST.Guillaume

        A German sculptor friend of mine was looking at one of my early
paintings and said: "Instead of being a writer, I think maybe..."
         I said, " Christ, don't say it! All I can say is painting feels good...
When I'm writing at my best, there's a joy in it.... And with some of the
'testament' writings, I wasn't there at all."
          "Same thing with the paintings, it's as if I'm gone and a saint takes
over..."
             "I know how you mean, exactly," he said, "When I do sculpture
 it's the same thing...."  Then he laughed and pointed at
himself and said, "Saint Matz."
              And he pointed at me and laughed and said, "St. Guillaume."

                It's a bit pretentious, I know. Still I think fondly of him. To me,
some of these paintings were done by, "St.Guillaume."

                The thing about painting is it's a joy... I don't take it seriously,
and dear God, I don't want to start now.

FETISHES! DO YOU NEED TO GROVEL AND BEG BEFORE SEX? DO YOU NEED A WOMAN IN LEATHER TO WHIP YOUR ASS IN THE TOWN SQUARE?

FETISHES! WHICH ONE IS YOURS NOW? DO YOU NEED BE DOMINATED DURING SEX? WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE WHIPPED BY A NAZI OUTSIDE CITY HALL?

                        DON'T READ THIS ARTICLE IF YOU'RE UNDER
           EIGHTEEN, IT MAY WARP YOUR SEXUAL
            ORIENTATION FOR LIFE



                                             
                           Of course, if you're 18, you're almost certain
to have a definite bent already.
             The association of a physical object with
arousal is extremely common. It might be a glove,
a high-heel shoe, a crop, a cane, a paddle, a belt...
or maybe even a rubber pillow you used to hump
 on the floor when you were  young.
              Whatever it is, I don't want to
influence your choice of fetish.  To be honest,
you don't choose your fetish, your fetish
chooses you.                  
                     
                             I use the 'closet' image when I discuss
S&M. Gay people use the image, too. They
talk of coming out of the closet. Sadomasochists,
are different - masochists would prefer to stay
'in the closet', because it's shameful.
Sadomasochists prefer to increase the shame,
because feeling ashamed of yourself for doing
this dirty little act - it's arousing in itself...
but mostly because you know you're going
to get punished for the "sick,disgusting, perverted
dirty little nasty" acts.   These words are
arousing to the masochist. Humiliation
fuels his/her  passion.
         For example to be told his penis
is too small, worthless, useless and
infantile, this really gets the male sub hot!            
Even if he's well-endowed, he'll
probably adore small penis humiliation (SPH).
            This directly ties in to the Cuckoldry
Fetish, which is really booming these days.
But this is a subject for another day.
         
       Don't read this if you're emotional or feeling
sensitive today.

          For a while recently I was avoiding 
writing about major FETISH  issues... Then I 
thought, hell,I've already written deeply 
penetrating articles about fetish.... 
         This blog is partly about
fetish, sexual repression...orgasm repression
and ways to overcome such a problem.
(see the Female Orgasm Clinic, which
is a blog I also write, on Tumblr). 
         In the Female Orgasm CIinic 
site I tell stories about real cases of 
real women with deep, long-lasting 
orgasm repression issues. One or two 
of these women didn't even know what 
an orgasm was...had never experienced  
release in their entire lives!
          They didn't know what they
were missing. They just knew
something was very wrong.


         
          In almost all cases we find a cure.
But extreme  measures sometimes must be
 taken.
          When I speak of extreme measures
I'm talking about giving the woman a good
caning, just to warm things up. 
         Then I find a sizable vibrator helps, with radio controlled various speeds. It's often a good idea to leave
the vibrator inside the woman for up to an hour and
leave her alone to think about things, anticipate
what may be coming next.
        Of course she is naked and strapped down
to a table on her stomach, her hips
appropriately raised.
       Meanwhile you can change speeds on
the vibrator from a remote location.
        It's important to use the kind of
vibrator that plugs into the wall. We are
not amateurs here, but experienced
professionals working at a difficult
task.

          My assistant, who is a licensed
psychologist will observe her from behind
a one-way glass, laying a bit of a whipping
across the patient's buttocks, every ten
minutes or so. The female patient, naturally,
is lying face down on a padded table.
          It's important to use a light touch,
and then throw a few vicious lashes on.
           The reason the patient is left
alone for various lengths of time,
this way she can anticipate what is coming
next with trepidation  and intensifying
arousal.
            The idea is to break all resistance
down. At the same time we are breaking
down all parental prohibitions, limitations
and restrictions - the parental and religious
script that plays like a negative tape loop
in her head.This is what's making her sick.
           By the time I am finished with her,
she won't be listening to those voices
anymore.She will stop fighting the pleasure
that is overwhelming her and start enjoying herself.         

      She is restrained with straps
and she will need to be when I begin
electrical therapy. The first shock
 comes as quite a surprise and that's
the intent.Patients have been know to buck
right off the table, when the first jolt hits
them.
           And there are other
surprises in store  for her,
as well. Surprise is an
important part of the therapy.
The psyche must be shaken loose
from its usual moorings.
           Rarely, but in difficult 
cases, I have had resort
to power tools.
        
          The whippings will
continue all through the night.
Not hard canings. Just hard
enough to keep the gal's mind
on other things, so she won't
notice when new therapies
are about to be applied.
         The use of many kinds
of distraction is a useful tool
in our arsenal.
            
          Remember, don't try
these methods at home. Each
case is very different and my
assistants are extremely experienced
in each of the therapies.
            For example, no one goes
near the electrodes until they've
worked at the clinic for three
months.
           Horrible things can happen
with an inexperienced worker.
For example,  you  can't douse the 
patient's body with water
 if the electrodes are still
attached to her sensitive parts.
          Considerable attention to detail
is necessary.

           My assistant is adept is very adept
at caning, and she enjoys it, which is important.

 
        There is libido repression in men, also.
         Of course, men can cum easily.
But there are shallow orgasms and deep
ones, and there is a huge difference
between the two types of orgasm in men.
A shallow orgasm is not satisfying.
         When a man is having a deep orgasm,
he's not going to be quiet about it. He'll
howl, shout, bleat... and make other
sounds you normally only hear
in a farmyard.
         
         Also, if he starts to pant
heavily...you know he's having a good
time. Men ought to be caned, too,
to take them down to that deeper
level of arousal.
       But that's not my job. I'll
leave that to you ladies among us!
          
      All the weird and wonderful   secret perverted
acts sniffing  nylons and panties and shoes,
beating off with a girdle wrapped around
your head... and a bra tied around your balls...
 and then the busty Scandinavian maid catches you, puts
you over her nylon knee...and whips
your little bum with a bamboo
cane...
          This is the maid who always 
stood by and smiled and snickered when mother 
spanked you bareassed with a wooden spoon...
And when mommy goes away, she got the job
of spanking you herself.
          No one is likely to forget such
events in their childhood, for the rest of
their days... in fact, these events will
turn into an overpowering fetish in later
years. And without the spark of this
fetish, the man will not be able to achieve
erection.
          Not without grovelling on the floor
and crawling across the rug, his ass in the
air, to suck the toes of his mistress.
          This man might be a high-powered
minister in the legislature, but still
he will need to perform this humiliating act
 repeatedly.

          You see what I mean? All kinds of
obsessions might rise up with no warning
later in life... Who knew that sniffing your mothers
shoes would turn into a full-bore foot fetish?
A passion for feet that every once in a while grabs you
and forces you to dive under dinner tables
and lick the instep of some unsuspecting
paying customer...

       Now all the above fetishes do not apply
to me - just most of them.
       I have been surprised by "a warm rush of blood
to the balls" (my father's definition of love)
 when I see a  woman's well tuned
ankle in a well-made boot, especially if she's
bobbing the high heeled shoe in a teasing, nodding
motion - rather as fisherman does when he has a
lure in the water...
        The bright fisherman's hook  fascinates the beady-eyed
bottom-feeding fish;the high-heeled taunting woman's
shoe  fascinates the more wide-eyed human male
who also wants to be a bottom feeder.
       
         All right...  I like kneeling between a good pair
of nylon legs...and I like dominant woman.
 I also like extremely submissive women who kneel
before me begging to be punished...
      I had a chance to spank a considerable number of 
women's bottoms when working briefly as the partner 
of a highly skilled dominatrix...I wasn't getting
paid. I did it because I liked it. The dominatrix
needed a male to play the part of a stern professor,
policeman, Nazi, daddy...or I could just be what I am -
a true sadist.
        The  fact is I enjoy seeing a woman's
buttocks clench and squirm while I whip
a cane across her bum cheeks...and when I whip
her ass harder.... I truly love to see her butt
squirm faster - as she tries to avoid the
harder quicker strikes.
        And I like to be spanked and caned myself
 So you see, I know about fetishes - a variety
of them.  I also have compulsions I don't want to admit to
at the moment.

               One thing I want to say is I am certain
that the study of fetishes - this study is at the
very core of the human psyche: it's at the 
hub/center/matrix   of compulsion and motivation. 
            If the conditions of one's fetish are not fulfilled, 
the psyche turns against itself.And there will be 
rebellion in the city of your mind.
           Deep impulses  repressed become rage; and rage
is the ultimate perversion of the mind. Rage turned
inward, of course, becomes depression.
           How much better it would be to  just
have your ass whipped by a strong woman in leather...
 and get wildly aroused...over a considerable period of
time... and be ordered to blow your load
on her knee, her shoe, or in your own shoes!
         No one is hurt...your passion
is spent... and your homicidal urges recede.

            It's fun, too! But it's also a serious
matter. Ignoring your own fetish will ruin your sex drive. 
If you never do the disgusting, perverted, dirty things 
 you need to do. If you don't share such shameful
things with your wife  or partner
your sex life will disappear.
          It takes courage to share what you're most
ashamed of with the person who owns half your
earthly goods. She might walk out.
          But believe me, if she doesn't let
you do all the dirty shameful things
you want to do to her...chances  are she's
doing the same dirty deeds with someone else.

           You've got to break it to her or him slowly.
I find it's  easiest to break the news to your
spouse, when you're having sex, fondling
her perhaps.
         
             There are some items you don't
want to surprise your partner with, though.
 I talked one husband into confessing to his wife
his deepest need. He wanted to have sex
with her, while he was wearing a  rubber pig's 
mask and making grunting noises.
          It took her a little while to get used 
to that. 
          After a month passed she confided
to me that they'd had a lot more sex than
usual that month, which was great. But she found
it a bit disgusting.
         I talked to the husband and told
him the problem. I asked him whether
a clown's mask would work as well. He
decided it would.
         So he started having sex with
his wife as he was wearing a full  clown's
mask, red rubber ball nose and all.
 The nose made a little honking
sound if she squeezed it, which she 
did more and more as time passed.
After a while she started squeezing
the nose each time she wanted
him to thrust into her.
        I'm told she kept increasing
the speed of the honks, until
he was thrusting as quick as he
could. This was a sadistic measure
of control which she quite enjoyed.
          Some weeks later I asked her
if the sex was still just as good as it was
with the pig's mask on. 
          She  informed me  that, yes,
the sex is still just as good.
" But I'll never take him as  seriously again
for the rest of my life!"




          Maybe that's a good thing.

HELPLESSNESS FETISH - PUBLIC HUMILIATION AROUSAL

               
                      I'd really like to get a handle on this one.
          I know fetishes can't be rationally understood,
or they wouldn't be fetishes. But why otherwise
strong people, often Alpha males and females, should
be aroused by weakness,  begging, public humiliation
and being demeaned in such extreme ways
as to be horrifying and hilarious at the same time.
                    I understand the joys of inflicting
and receiving pain...there are endorphins involved... etc.
But sexual arousal in being utterly powerless, has me groping
in the dark, as to how to get my mind around it. This
one makes no sense at all.

          Yes, I understand many people are masochists,
or have masochistic tendencies - they enjoy
being verbally degraded. This I get. This can be fun.
This can be a turn on... but this "Tease and Denial"
business, OK I get that, too...
         And when I say business, I mean business.
The SEX FETISH INDUSTRY is a billion dollar a year
industry.

          I had a pal who was a dominatrix. Twenty years
ago she'd get paid $350.00 an hour for verbally
abusing her male clients, maybe use a riding crop on them
but maybe not. At the end of the session, all the while
telling the fella what a dweeb he is and how small and worthless his penis is, she'd order the guy to crawl off
to the front door on his hands and knees... Then she'd
tell the guy to masturbate into his own shoes.
         And right after he'd done that, she'd make
him put on the same shoes, and she'd tell
him to, "GET OUT!"
         And for that she'd get paid three hundred and fifty
dollars up front. I'm told it would be more now.
          I'm sure there are quite a few women out there
who'd wish they could treat there husbands that way -
and for half the price!

          Oh, well! As I say, there's no rational understanding
of much of this fetish business. But I'd like to
at least have a psychological grasp of some of the
situations.
          


        


      If anybody knows anything about any of
these situations, please feel free to make some comments
and maybe we'll get some discussions
going.

          I'm attempting to "Enable Comments" - learn how
to do it on Blogger... in order to keep this Blog informal
so we can have relaxed discussions on embarrassing
subjects.

                                                  Cheers!